The Concept

You came into my life
and life came into me
with a spark
I rushed on
in search of something special
someone special
with you by my side
i looked no further
u had the answers
and i had no questions
you taught me the very fact of life
i would confront
and not comprehend
two types of people i will meet
a slut who would sleep with every one else
and a bitch who would not sleep with me
and you looked up to me
with an intensity un matched
and i looked the distance
to see my life
waiting for me waiting on me
only to find you
gone
for a reason i hope
i believe
like the air i breathe
this very moment
you left behind for me........

happy ugadi,lolly

An ode to my ego

My ego has taken me places cant remember how,when and where he was born.
I usually carry it with me everywhere I go. Be it work,be it the dance floor, be it a game of cricket usually do not confront him. I usually tend to let my ego have his way.
But today was one of those days when I did confront him.
And little did I know, he has grown so much ,so fast. I don't even recognize him.

I usually tend to confront him when I happen to deal or should I say tame a woman's stubbornness. Don't get me wrong here. I think a woman is a fascinating creation.
I love to have women around me but not my ego. How do you explain to a woman she was wrong? Well I usually do not. I usually deal with it through humor and sarcasm and manyatimes playfulness.
But only when it is below a threshold point. Today it hit that point. And my ego took over.
It lasted two hours. I think I made her cry. inside. He left doing enough damage.
And that's when I confronted him. Our conversation was short. I had a few questions to ask. And he answered them promptly. One particular answer took me aback I questioned him about his intentions, he had just one thing to say. And that was what and why he does is purely to hide my thoughts, my feelings. And this is because I can dish out a whole range of emotions at one person at one moment. And that I lose the plot completely then. And that's my weakness. A weakness he covers.

I realized he was right in a way. All those moments in my life when I had to make one important decision, say one important word to that one important person, I let him take over. Because of my reputation to radiate a spectrum of emotions, I have sometimes exposed one thought.

like a spider web......... The only difference being I am caught in my own web.

and tomorrow and for the next few days I will have to try explaining this to the woman.....
then again on second thoughts... I think I am better off leaving her alone.
Cos deep inside I know she knows I was right.

is this my ego speaking again?.................

Lolly

Continuing with the pope...

I came to the office today morning, hoping to let loose some words on the media circus thats going on about the popes death. But since the other vice man has already spoken on that, i'll just like to add a few lines. It is beyond my imagination why India has to declare 3 days official mourning for the pope's death. Yes he was a world figure revered by many in India(that's about 17 million Catholics), but in no way was he a national figure of importance. I just wonder if this isn't another attempt by the so called secular parties to mollycoddle upto the minorities.

P.S. Just thought I'd mention this, Vatican has launched an all out attack on the popular work of fiction Da Vinci Code forbidding all Catholics to shun it. Seems like it is only making the book more popular.

machee

whats with the world?

The newspaper is screaming that the pope died and the world is mourning. Weird world I must say. All the preaching, all the propaganda hasn't driven the point into their thick heads? There is a heaven, it is a nice place to be, and when you die you will go there (assuming of course that you have aligned yourself to the true faith, didn’t fancy your neighbour's wife - or confessed of doing so - and donated enough to keep the pope well-fed). So what’s all the fuss about? He was a good man, a great strategic marketing guru, and I am sure he is being well taken care of in heaven. So, stop mourning and celebrate the day. Be happy. For I am sure the pope would really like us that way.

iyer

maybe baby

i realized I have not switched off the fan in my room for quite some time........ the glass with dried jesus juice has been lying there since....... it was lying there... some pictures i once treasured are lying underneath my bed .... i drop my tv remote and look for it atleast three times a day.. did i brush my teeth today? ive never opened my phone bills for a while now (I pay them though). when was the last time i looked out my window?

these just clarify the feeling this very moment...... a feeling of emptiness...... a feeling of stagnation..... i look different these days.... its not the hair............ its that still emotion I have on my face.......tomorrow the 4th of april..... means something to me........ not too long ago i had the same feeling...... and everything changed that day..... maybe this realization is a reminder that i have to re find myself ..... theres way too much dryness... i need to moisturize......
i need to re locate my thoughts........ my desires... and what better day than the 4th of april.....

may it mark a new end...... and an old beginning......

lolly