An ode to my ego

My ego has taken me places cant remember how,when and where he was born.
I usually carry it with me everywhere I go. Be it work,be it the dance floor, be it a game of cricket usually do not confront him. I usually tend to let my ego have his way.
But today was one of those days when I did confront him.
And little did I know, he has grown so much ,so fast. I don't even recognize him.

I usually tend to confront him when I happen to deal or should I say tame a woman's stubbornness. Don't get me wrong here. I think a woman is a fascinating creation.
I love to have women around me but not my ego. How do you explain to a woman she was wrong? Well I usually do not. I usually deal with it through humor and sarcasm and manyatimes playfulness.
But only when it is below a threshold point. Today it hit that point. And my ego took over.
It lasted two hours. I think I made her cry. inside. He left doing enough damage.
And that's when I confronted him. Our conversation was short. I had a few questions to ask. And he answered them promptly. One particular answer took me aback I questioned him about his intentions, he had just one thing to say. And that was what and why he does is purely to hide my thoughts, my feelings. And this is because I can dish out a whole range of emotions at one person at one moment. And that I lose the plot completely then. And that's my weakness. A weakness he covers.

I realized he was right in a way. All those moments in my life when I had to make one important decision, say one important word to that one important person, I let him take over. Because of my reputation to radiate a spectrum of emotions, I have sometimes exposed one thought.

like a spider web......... The only difference being I am caught in my own web.

and tomorrow and for the next few days I will have to try explaining this to the woman.....
then again on second thoughts... I think I am better off leaving her alone.
Cos deep inside I know she knows I was right.

is this my ego speaking again?.................

Lolly